Well yeah, you actually took me seriously. [ which is maybe not exactly what he wanted to admit, given the way he pauses, but whatever. ] I just mean if I asked any of my friends at home it'd be a nightmare, and the other people I might've actually asked are Elysium and Rafayel and... you've met them. Or Edamura-san.
[ two of them are a nightmare of their own and one of them is a disaster. ]
And it's because you took it seriously that it's good advice. [ so yeah. applicable to other people. ]
Elysium and Rafayel would be annoying about it, but they'd probably try to help steer you in the right direction in their own agitating way. [ did he have to call them annoying twice ] Edamura... would probably do his best.
[ help me ]
But it's about how you feel and treat someone. Of course it's serious.
[ tobari is too considerate of other people to brush them off ]
I did talk to all three of them after I talked to you. [ tobari wrestling it out of him made it easier. ] Varying results, and I don't know how much got across for some, but it wasn't terrible. They all did try and I appreciate that. I...
[ ... never mind he's not going to get weird and soft about it. ]
It's not that I mind. Being in your position at home. But I think I said before that the person I usually talk to about this kind of stuff would be Yu, and I can't for multiple reasons. I love my friends and I trust them with my life, but it's still... not the same. Talking to them about this kind of stuff might make things worse if I'm not prepared for how they'd react.
[ they are all still teenagers who have a specific view of one another, and while he knows they'd all try he also knows there are certain levels of judgment coloring those views. ]
[ this is cute. tobari just snorts faintly. he can figure out how the sentence ends, so he won't press yosuke for it. there's some part of him that's just glad that he has other people looking out for him even if tobari's the one kicking him around ]
I get it. Social contexts and the fact that your dynamic with them is just different. Of course you'll be more careful.
[ he is a little baby teenager who is worried about what other little baby teenagers think and sometimes they are clumsy with their words and feelings. suzune is a headache and tobari loves her. ]
But for as long as we're here, you can talk to me if it helps. And if it doesn't, just tell me to shove it.
[ all of his favorite people really are annoying in some degrees somehow... ]
Yeah, that's pretty much it. [ he is in fact a little baby teenager worried what other little baby teenagers will think, thank you. ] I'm... a little more okay admitting it to people here, but I need to be more comfortable thinking about it there before I try, I think. Otherwise it's just gonna be bad for everybody.
[ he does appreciate the offer though, thank you, tobari. ]
I still don't entirely know how to thank you for that. I'm still getting used to actually doing this. [ sometimes you really do just kind of have a realization one day that all of your friendships were shallow as fuck and you've never actually had deep conversations in your life before meeting your current friends. ] And before you say I don't have to, shut up, I want to. Besides paying you in noodles.
I thought it was important for you to see something nice. [ given the state of itehari. ]
I'm doing my best. [ and it helps when his own shit isn't bogging him down, because it means he can push himself forward to help other people. this will also be helpful when he loses his ability to talk a few days later. ] It's one of those things I think we could all stand to remember. That things aren't one-sided, I mean.
... I kinda wish you'd been here from the beginning, but better late than never.
[ nods along in his agreement even if he finds it endearing.
except hm. ah? hm. ]
... you know, I think that's my cue to go to bed. [ like yes, probably, but also please he wants to die even thinking about this. he will thank tobari later maybe. ]
[ he's at least polite enough to grab his own trash before slinging his guitar over his shoulder and collecting his cat. this is his now... even if it looks annoyed to leave the warm comfort of tobari's lap. ]
... thanks again, man.
[ and there's a bow of his head before he's letting himself out and scuttling off. good night tobari. ]
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Suggest it to me again if I'm ever cursed.
But I think most people would be too embarrassed or uninterested. Glad you think the advice is good enough for that, though.
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[ two of them are a nightmare of their own and one of them is a disaster. ]
And it's because you took it seriously that it's good advice. [ so yeah. applicable to other people. ]
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Elysium and Rafayel would be annoying about it, but they'd probably try to help steer you in the right direction in their own agitating way. [ did he have to call them annoying twice ] Edamura... would probably do his best.
[ help me ]
But it's about how you feel and treat someone. Of course it's serious.
[ tobari is too considerate of other people to brush them off ]
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I did talk to all three of them after I talked to you. [ tobari wrestling it out of him made it easier. ] Varying results, and I don't know how much got across for some, but it wasn't terrible. They all did try and I appreciate that. I...
[ ... never mind he's not going to get weird and soft about it. ]
It's not that I mind. Being in your position at home. But I think I said before that the person I usually talk to about this kind of stuff would be Yu, and I can't for multiple reasons. I love my friends and I trust them with my life, but it's still... not the same. Talking to them about this kind of stuff might make things worse if I'm not prepared for how they'd react.
[ they are all still teenagers who have a specific view of one another, and while he knows they'd all try he also knows there are certain levels of judgment coloring those views. ]
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I get it. Social contexts and the fact that your dynamic with them is just different. Of course you'll be more careful.
[ he is a little baby teenager who is worried about what other little baby teenagers think and sometimes they are clumsy with their words and feelings. suzune is a headache and tobari loves her. ]
But for as long as we're here, you can talk to me if it helps. And if it doesn't, just tell me to shove it.
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Yeah, that's pretty much it. [ he is in fact a little baby teenager worried what other little baby teenagers will think, thank you. ] I'm... a little more okay admitting it to people here, but I need to be more comfortable thinking about it there before I try, I think. Otherwise it's just gonna be bad for everybody.
[ he does appreciate the offer though, thank you, tobari. ]
I still don't entirely know how to thank you for that. I'm still getting used to actually doing this. [ sometimes you really do just kind of have a realization one day that all of your friendships were shallow as fuck and you've never actually had deep conversations in your life before meeting your current friends. ] And before you say I don't have to, shut up, I want to. Besides paying you in noodles.
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You shared a piece of your home with me. That's plenty.
[ but he does sort of get it. there's an urge to repay the people who take care of you. ]
Just don't lose heart and keep doing what you're doing to help others. If I can take some weight off your shoulders, that's just me doing my part too.
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I'm doing my best. [ and it helps when his own shit isn't bogging him down, because it means he can push himself forward to help other people. this will also be helpful when he loses his ability to talk a few days later. ] It's one of those things I think we could all stand to remember. That things aren't one-sided, I mean.
... I kinda wish you'd been here from the beginning, but better late than never.
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so cute that tobari kind of just has to say, ]
But then I would've had to meet Elysium earlier?
[ no he's just dunking on him for fun ]
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[ sorry, cuteness over. annoying time now. just makes an assumption. ]
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[ BE NICE TO ELYSIUM ]
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I don't wanna know what he's said to you, do I?
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[ why is he shooting rafayel
anyway pauses as he realizes something. sighs deeply. ]
When it's not 1 AM, I'm going to tell you how to be safely intimate with a guy.
[ we can handwave this but unfortunately he's realizing he needs to do this before yosuke goes home ]
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except hm. ah? hm. ]
... you know, I think that's my cue to go to bed. [ like yes, probably, but also please he wants to die even thinking about this. he will thank tobari later maybe. ]
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but that's about what he thought. he's not looking forward to it either but it's a necessity... ]
Ah. Go.
[ rises to help collect all the trash and put it away so that yosuke can collect what he actually brought in with him ]
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... thanks again, man.
[ and there's a bow of his head before he's letting himself out and scuttling off. good night tobari. ]