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I would, yeah. Why's that weird? [ that is also true, he would in fact do this. the nudge means he gently bats at the foot, and he seems pensive for a moment as he plays with his food instead. ]

So like... [ mmmm. ] Why did you have to bring so many chips back from Bostco?

You're getting awfully comfortable... [ well tobari wouldn't turn him away anyway. as for the question, ] Was a good idea at the time. Not used to having so much food available.

[ scarcity mindset is crazy. he probably still has a box of chips somewhere in the corner of his room ]

Why?

Should I not be? And considering... yeah, I get it. [ the tone is casual and joking but the expression says he's ready to leave if tobari did want to kick him out. instead, he offers the second cup of noodles. ]

Anyway I took some of your chips to someone else and somehow we ended up making out. [ dry. just. so dry. maybe skipped a few steps there, yoosk. ]

[ takes the noodles and has a moment of ? ??? ?? ?????? ?? ?? ?? ?

eats the noodles....

contemplates.... ]

[ sips some of the cup noodle broth.................

alright tapping back in ]

Was it your first time getting that intimate with someone?

[ truly bringing little offerings like a damn cat. but he snaps his head up and frowns a little. ]

Dude. [ given the response and the way he's fighting off a blush, the answer's yes and he didn't want to acknowledge that. ] Not just me.

[ instinctively drags ryuji under the bus with him apparently. ]

Don't 'dude' me. Clearly it was a worthwhile question.

[ HE HAS TO KNOWN HOW SERIOUS THIS MIGHT BE ]

I'm going to ask you three questions before I decide how to respond to this.

Did you feel cursed or influenced to do it at all? Not because I don't think you're capable, but because shit was flinging around everywhere last week that made people act not in control of themselves and that can be a pain in the ass when physicality gets involved.

[ sometimes even literally but he's not getting there ]

[ he can't even be mad because he willingly came here. let's not mention literal pains in the ass though, he will leave. he will answer around a mouthful of noodles though. ]

No. I was myself, I had enough after what happened with Hak.

Good. I'm not going to ask what happened with Hak.

[ Can't be worse than what happened with Rafayel or Elysium.

can't it, tobari ]

Second question and third question are related.

Did you enjoy yourself? Did they?

[ immediately derailed again. ]

Wait, what happened with Elysium and Rafayel?

[ "like... together?????" ]

[ fuck ]

Do I look like I can multi-task that well? Don't answer that.

[ ?!? ]

I... don't really want to know, do I.

[ "i mean at least they're both attractive? wait, no, focus!" ]

Whatever, your business, it's fine.

Like I said. Curses. But we're all adults and I don't kiss and tell.

[ thoughtshare doxxed him bUT YOSUKE DOESN'T NEED TO KNOW ANYMORE!!!! ]

Answer my questions.

Right... [ HE DOESN'T WANT TO KNOW ANYMORE though this does remind him he hasn't actually seen raf this week so that's a whole other thing. whatever, back to the question. ]

Anyway, um... yeah? And I didn't get any complaints from him so I guess so, yeah.

[ nods............................ ]

So you're stressed out because he's a him and simultaneously not the guy you're here for?

[ just

point blank shot in the dark why not ]

[ how the fuck. ]

I wouldn't call it being stressed out... [ it's a weak-ass protest though. ] But yeah, I guess that's a thing that happened out of nowhere suddenly.

Uh-huh.

[ yosuke you are such an overthinker but if you won't call it stress than tobari supposes that's a win. at least it doesn't seem like a negative thing? so he'll keep eating his noodles ]

So? What're you thinking about it?

[ he is in fact an overthinker about this kind of thing. ]

I guess... [ ... ] I thought maybe Yu was an exception and it wasn't a liking guys thing. Except I asked to kiss another guy and it wasn't terrible, so like... [ he shrugs and sips his broth to think on this. ] I don't know. I said it was like practice to even see if that was a thing I could do, and he had just complained about Hak being a terrible kisser and I just kinda said it and now here we are. [ a pause. ] Pretty sure he has a crush on a different guy, too, but hadn't totally realized it either.

[ . . . . okay ]

... so once again, you might just like some guys and the world isn't over.

[ he thinks yosuke knows that. but also stating it for the record. the sky isn't falling and the world isn't turned on its head just because he might be bi. ]

As for the practice thing—that's fine. It can work out. But it can also be kind of a pain, depending on where things go from here. I've dealt with both results.

I might like some guys and the world isn't over, even if it might be when I get back. [ he does not believe for a hot second it'll be easy, but it's fine. he's at least panicking a lot less about it. ]

... what... [ hm. ] A pain how, exactly?

Shut up. It's not all over just because you had your tongue in a guy's mouth.

[ YOSUKE!!!!!!!! ]

A pain in the sense of if your communication is bad and you don't talk about where you're both at emotionally. You can't read each other's minds, so it'd be bad if someone caught feelings just because you enjoy being close to someone but the other person doesn't, and then you don't know how to move past it.

But even that's workable, for the record.

Do you have to say it like that? [ stop being a weenie, yosuke. ]

We, uh... haven't actually talked since then. Been kinda busy. [ he has not, they just haven't. ] I'm pretty sure it's not like that since I'm the one who asked him, and I'm not into him like that, but uh... good to know for the future, I think.

[ ... ugh. ]

Why are there so many unspoken rules about this crap?

They're not actually supposed to be unspoken. Anyone worthwhile romantically knows how to communicate. People are just shy because of egos or fear of rejection. But you can still be good friends that make out sometimes—but part of being good friends is talking shit out. Don't lose sight of that.

[ nudges yosuke again ]

And if anyone does start to develop feelings, take a break from the physical stuff. Or else you'll get more confused down the line.

[ he makes a face because like yes, that's part of it. nudging back anyway. ]

... he's a cool guy. I like hanging out with him, even without the making out part. I haven't decided about the making out part? But it was, like... it wasn't bad.

[ he looks at the ceiling though. ]

Maybe it wouldn't be as weird if I didn't think about the part I might see him again in the future.

... it's one of those things that's only weird if you make it weird, but if it's the first time you've really been that vulnerable with someone, it'll probably feel awkward at first. People talk about physicality like it's all just headiness and impulse, but there can be a lot of trust involved.

[ especially for little novice baby gays like yosuke and whoever this other guy is ]

You don't have to do it again if you don't want to. But if you do, just make sure you talk about it. Avoiding it will only make things weirder.

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